Top Dawg Entertainment‘s Goddess, SZA, made her network television debut on Jimmy Kimmel’s late night show tonight (January 13th). After confirming her forthcoming album, ‘CTRL’ and debuting some of that new-new, including a collaboration with Travis Scott, “Love Galore,” at an intimate listening party in New York earlier this week, SZA has gifted with us a preview of what is to come with her new single, “Drew Barrymore.” The TDE Songstress performed the single on Jimmy Kimmel, just minutes after the track surfaced on Apple Music.
Produced by Scum and Carter Lang, the 26 year-old describes the track as “black grunge,” touching the harsh and crippling reality of her depression and struggles of low self-esteem. “I get so lonely I forget what I’m worth / We get so lonely we pretend that it’s worse / I’m so ashamed of myself think I need therapy,” she sings. “I’m sorry I’m not more attractive/I’m sorry I’m not more ladylike / I’m sorry I don’t shave my legs at night.”
The forthcoming album just may be her last as a tweet from this past October reveals, “I actually quit. @iamstillpunch can release my album if he ever feels like it. Y’all be blessed.” She deleted the message several hours after sending it. However, that left us all wondering, is this last we’ll get from the Millennial RnB Queen?
She later follows up and clarifies her relationship with TDE, insisting that rumors of a breach were amplified, “Me and Punch never get along—that’s every day,” she says. “They call me one of the homies. We’re all different, and that was hard to understand because they’re tough-love people and hard to read, but I dig it now. I don’t have any issues with my label. My label has been nothing but supportive of everything I’ve wanted to do.” After being asked about quitting music, the artist simply trails off and expresses that she doesn’t “have the energy to create a filter anymore.” Touching on the fact that she is burnt out.
SZA tells Complex: “My life has just been falling the fuck apart. I buried, like, three ex-boyfriends, my granny died, I buried someone two days ago… I’m devastated by the state of the world and the hatred.”
“Some days I feel militant and vengeful,” she continues. “Some days I feel defeated and I actually cry because I just don’t understand. Then you start getting biblical, like, ‘Why is this happening to my people?’ Then you go through, ‘It’s never going to change, so might as well just go with the flow.’ And then you go through, ‘No. I’m not asking anymore. I’m going to make it change.’”
We anxiously await the remainder of the magic that is to come that TDE’s head, Punch describes as “raw.” Peep the new single below on Apple Music.